Hello

Unfortunately, when I was a teenager, I was abused by a secondary school teacher, and since then I had the Covid era to contend with, which kind of started to make me sit on my ass all the time, feeling sad and lonely. But recently I been trying to put in structure in my life, and that is one of the reasons why this website was born. Also I recently been trying to work on occupying my self since my horrible times, which has been pretty hard, that why I been trying to set my self a timetable on my phone, which kind of helped me flow with my life. I got interests in photography, and cinematography. I also enjoy taking apart technological devices, for example I disassembled an old DSLR camera, and I took apart a petrol chainsaw, and a petrol mower. Recently, my dad and I, was restoring another petrol mower that we both bought from a local rubbish tip, and I managed to get it back to working order. Also recently, I bought my self a new "second hand" professional digital video camera, which uses "DSLR" lenses. I also bought a second hand "shotgun" microphone to go with my video camera. I also recently done a cinematography experiment where I pointed a super 8 camera at a laptop monitor to expose a piece of digital video footage to super 8 film, which I then got developed. I also enjoy walking in nature, imagining what the world was like before the days of the internet. I also like looking out to sea partially because it kind of makes me imagine the magical olden nautical times. I also sometimes have fun experimenting with building camp stoves and stuff like that, and I enjoy doing wood fires. I also have interests in telecommunications such as morse code for example, for example, I built a apparatus that allows you to transmit audio signals via infrared beam, which is then picked up by a infrared sensor, which hooked up to a loud speaker. I also been doing sketchings from some of my photos before, for example, I drawn a sketching of Bayard's Cove from a photo of mine. I also recently been doing film based photography, and developing my own camera films by my self, rather than letting a third party do it. I also been going to Newton Abbot, Devon every Wednesday as of 2026. I am also funny enough, a poly-phasic sleeper, who is often sometimes getting up in the night ranging from Two AM, to Four AM, sometimes Six AM. I am also autistic. I recently been learning: about how my fears get the better of me, and how I struggle to hang out with brand new people just because I often feel like I can't really be my self, and how mostly because of that I often start behaving a bit weirdly around new people mostly because I feel like I have to mask my self. I also sometimes feel like a "untrustworthy yob" mostly because I am not seen in a paid job working every day, plus I am not seen commuting everyhere like everyone else, and because of all of that I look like a "yobbo" or a "freeloader", so I sometimes feel like I have to give everyone an excuse for me not simply just going to work everyday and back, another reason i sometimes look like a untrustworthy person even though I'm not: is because I sometimes appear to be behaving a bit like a weird yob who is loose and who doesn't know what to do with him self, and that is one of the reasons why I'm getting frustrated about struggling to simply get a paid job like everyone else.